Mama & me

My mum always think I am the smartest kid in the family. The laziest, but also the smartest. You know mum being mum la, she would have think tat I am more handsome than Andy Lau...(ok, ok my mum is not blind)

When I played my first tv jingle on the little Casio keyboard at 3 yrs O, my mum tot I was a music prodigy. A quick enrollment to Yamaha followed and few sessions later, I dropped out of the course. When I drew the first Transformers character, she tot I was a budding Picasso in the making. I was enrolled and I dropped out too. Computer course...enrolled and dropped out. Swimming...enrolled and dropped out. Piano lessons...enrolled and dropped out....and again... and again...

As you can see, it became a routine and formed the blueprint for the first 20 yrs of my life. I was in and out for a few more various courses until my mum realised, I am TOO old to be a prodigy. My younger brother of 7 yrs difference took over that role shortly after. To justify her decision, I even dropped out of school.

To be fair, I never did too badly in all those pursuits. I juz never excelled. Good enough, but not the best. Maybe I never lasted long enough to master any of those. On 2nd tots, it seemed I never last long enough in anything. Always a Jack, master of none. Is there anything I wanted so badly before that I will trade in a limb or leg for it? Well...I would love to do music as a career, relocate to Taiwan, marry a woman who loves me wholeheartedly and bear me 2 beautiful daughters...erm, think I will need more than one limb for all these.

Though I am no high-flying yuppie with all the Cs, I haben fared too badly I guessed. I have a decent job which pays me decent dough to sustain a carefree lifestyle. But this is not what I desire. And everyday I wonder why am I still doing what I am doing. Too much thoughts and no actions. The mileage I clock from thinking, I think I can fly to the moon already.

Sometimes I wish I hav a lit more sense of urgency, maybe I can achieve so much more. I am juz never too bothered. The only 2 times I snap into action is when I need my ciggies or when I need to shit. Damnz. Procrastination is not only a thief of Time...it's my best fren. This world is complicated manz. Some wise man said 'If it's meant to be, it will be'....the next moment it's 'U r what U wanna be'. I am confused.

Sigh. Hoped my mama dun die too soon, so that I can always be more handsome than Andy Lau. Ha.