Top Five Regrets of the Dying

I totally heart this. Hope it inspires all of us.

Dream.

And my world is asleep, I presumed. Half a bottle of red and an inspirational movie later, I am in the mood for writing again.

I have been composing again, with 2..er..1 and a half song to boot for the past week. Recorded one, shown it to a few buds and feeling happy. Music is my dream, I would give one arm and leg juz to do it everyday. But maybe I am like any other normal guy on the street..realistic..and needing to put food on the table. Maybe I am feeling old too, and the dreaming starts becoming a lit more distance. But dreaming shouldn't have restrictions nor limitations. Dreaming is a part of Life. I never feel more alive living out my dream, abeit small-scaled, in my cosy room, on my beloved piano.

Tomorrow is another day, and everyday is a new day. Much as I am afraid and contradicting what I am going to preach in the sentences below, I dare everyone else to go out and dream! Maybe there's still a lit dreaming left within me, maybe the spirit didn't disappear totally. Well, I am making music again, however temporal that might be. And I am loving it!

Tonight..opps (it's morning!!) ...TODAY, I am a dreamer. And I hope you will be one too. GO Go! :D

p/s: I did a video of an old composition for a buddy as a b'day gift somewhere in Dec. AND HE JUZ POSTED IT ON FACEBOOK!!!

Yea. Dream. What a bad dream.

Jazz-ed me up.

I forgot when is the last time I actually open up my itunes and listen to my collection of songs.

I am a big-time music fanatic. Anything to do with music, count me in. My ears prick up at the slightest sound of melodic indications and my body sways automatically to any beautiful beats. Funny how this love deserted me for the past few months. THanks to R, whom I re-found again recently and her very thoughtful and sweet gift of a jazz-themed album.

Blasting those songs in my cosy bedroom now makes me dreamy and in the mood for love. To get drunk. To sing on the stage. Or to sing incoherently after 2 dozens of beers to the one I love. Okay, I am DREAMY...so pardon my nonsensical banterings. I think wat I really wanna say is, Music is wonderful! With eyes closed, I am always transported back to my stage, where I perform to loved and close ones, singing and tinkering again. Mmmmm. Sweet. (I think I stopped and dreamt for a good 10 mins here)

Thank you very much R, now I wanna go out and get drunk :) It's a beautiful thursday and tomolo is public holidaeee! I will be doing myself a great injustice if I juz stay home and keep dreaming, esp after getting so jazz-ed up!

Lalalala. Beers. Ciggies. Finger-licking good chicken wings. Manz, tat's Life!

Last post for 2009.

Last day of the year, last post to sum up everything.

Since I started blogging in July 2008, I have written 152 entries (this included). It started as a curiousity, carried on due to persistence and passion and religiously updated as an outlet for frustrations or documentations of sorts. Reading some of the ramdom posts again brings back tinges of melancholy and refreshes momental state of minds. This blog has been a faithful companion thru my journey and the creation of every posts have been thoroughly enjoyed.

The Breguet Team had a end year dinner yesterday and made everyone participated in a 'round-table' speech, where we are to say our best moments in 2009. When it came to my turn, I was rather stumped. Becos seriously, 2009 hasn't been a fantastic year, with no memorable milestones to recollect. This sobering fact saddens me. It's like wasting a year of living, suspending my existence in the midst of happenings. Standing at the midpoint of Life, it can be liberating knowing it's 30 years after birth or depressing to realise it's 30yrs away from Death. Some life stories can filled chapters, while some struggled to contain pages. I hope mine is not the latter, as I embarked towards the finale. Living Life fully has finally stamped its mark in this slacker's head.

For pals with new members in the household/juz married/getting married/deciding to marry....ALL THE BEST TO YOU! For pals moving to a NEW career/house/love/location...ALL THE BEST TO YOU! For pals I have met/always meet/hardly meet now/never meet eversince....ALL THE BEST TO YOU!

*You know who you are, and you know I dun mince my words. SAm dun entertains people who he can't be bothered with. If I hate YOU, I show it. If I have no interest in hanging out with you, I show it. If I wan you outta my life, I SHOW IT. So if you fall into this category, FUCK YOU, Get a life in 2010!.....ok....Happy New year but still. Fuck you.


I have made some small resolutions and hope for big happenings. And maybe some unplanned surprises. 2010 promise much, so let's see where we will all be this time next year.

So that's about it, I guessed. Bye~2009, Halo~2010.

Shacked.

8:05 a.m. Beautiful morning. And I didn't sleep again.

Been thinking of doing something involving music on a 'part-time basis'. Write. Sing. Anything. And meet like-minded peeps in the process. And enjoy music together. I have to brush up on my basics.

I desperately want to fix up a simple home-recording studio. And it's not cheap. A bloodly mixer with a pair of decent mics are going to set me back like 2k. But the bigger problem is...I dun even know how to go about fixing a home studio.

Fatigue is finally settling in and I have to report for work at 10 a.m. It's going to be a long day. At least I know I am going to sleep well tonight. Blogging can be lonely too. Basically it's like toking to myself. And I dunno what to tell myself anymore. There's no point fighting Life, cos things happen if/when they happen.

Do you read my blog? YOU?

I miss you so much that I feel guilty if I dun.

Like a man with the wrong key hoping to get in. Or get out.

Indeed, there will always be one hill higher than the other.

I met someone 'new' today, chatted and ended the night singing KTV. All on the first day. Amazing.

'New' cos I met her 2 years back thru a buddy. Added her on FB thru this bud, never spoken to her, dunno much about her. Somehow, something make me click on her profile again one ramdom day. And I will always clicked and checked. And checked again. Then I decided to read up on her info.

"hmm....we have quite alot of similar interests wo...esp music and singing.."

Yesterday, not discounting the chance I might be treated like a weirdo or freak, I gave her a msg. Cos I heard she is a good singer. Cos for the appreciation of good voice. Cos for the love of music.

I am Impressed. She is fantastic. I am humbled.

D is one little pocket dynamo. Apparently she 'worked' with Roy (黎沸揮) before. She juz raised the benchmark. Even Marc said she is the best he heard so far in all our KTV sessions. And that is 15 yrs of sessions, mind you.

I muz ask her out for another session. Oh, did I say she is cute? ;)