Formatting Mother Earth.

And here I am again, trying to write another post when I promised myself to sleep early. Sigh, me being me, pigs willl fly if Sam is obedient. Heh.

I seem to be moody again. Partly due to lingering worries, partly due to dwindling finances. I juz read some resolutions I listed early this year and realised I have accomplished none yet. With 4 months plus to go be4 the end of 2010, I think my resolutions are going to be fucked again. Wat a waste of time doing shit. Sigh!

I sometimes hope that Life takes on a miracle turn when I wake up the next day, or even suddenly having permanent amnesia is fine too. But then miracles mostly happen in movies... I think hoping for amnesia is so much more probable. I am constantly thinking and 'bothered' by stuffs, I hope my memory can crash for once and reboot. The 2 most apparent factors I can offer for my situation is 'not knowing what the heck am I doing wat I am doing' and 'not being to do what I wanna do'. THey really screw with your mind, cos perpectually finding reasons to justify 'why you muz do what you are doing', is like lying to yourself. Blatantly. What's the point of having the awareness that I should get out when I am consciously halted by reality?

A man with a half glass of water, can only drink this much. If you only have one mouthful left, live with the thirst.

I am definitely sore with people having the better packages in Life and still lamenting about their 'pathetic' situations. Fuck you. For you not only have a glass full of water, you can still choose the beverages you want. Your 'no money cos no work, yet going on trips'...'telling the whole world about your latest purchases/holidays/indulgences and still whinning about little setbacks'...and 'telling me how broke you are when you have savings/stocks/investments lying around' are a real pain to my ears. I would seriously consider butchering you to pieces and and scatter your remains all over if not for the legal implications. If you can't see the better-off position you are in, do yourself a favour and poke yourself blind in both eyes. At least you have an excuse for being a self-centered, uncontented, bloody idiot.

Facing the force and pressure of living in this materialistic society, I hate the lack of equilibrium in this system. I pray endlessly for a catastrophic occurrence to wipe out the difference in wealth, stature and living standards and revert all of us back to basic again. We can all hunt animals together and live in one big cave. ANd I can punch the shit out of you when you start spewing crap again.

Now, if only I can pull the plug and reboot the world.