Bored.

I am having a bad cough, painful sore throat and flaring skin condition. All because I have too much time at disposal.

My boss told me the new boutique might not be ready till mid June...SO even though I am still drawing a pay to stay home, the boredom is killing me. Other than the very few designated days where I have to report back to head office or run some company errands, there is no work to be done. And since I have to be prudent with my 'temp-paycut' salary, I am freaking stuck at home.

I eat, I shit, I bathe, I sleep, I watch movies, I play games, I play piano and smoke, smoke, smoke.

I am a lazy bum and have always dream of having more off days to slack at home, but I am kinda regretting it now.  If there's stuffs to keep you occupied, it's still fine...but to put my daily life on repetitive loop for few days in a row?? Shit NO! And to refrain myself from excessive alcohol comsumption or wastage of good dough, I am constantly, consciously reminding myself to keep my feet at home. Basically, I am holed up in my little, cosy room all day..with no indication of day or night (my curtains are always drawn..) and screwing up my bio clock. Yesterday I played my playstation from the previous night 10 pm to the following day noon till 2 pm, which is like..16 hours straight?! I stopped onli becos of the bloody sore thumb, from pressing too long on the controller. I woke up last night at 9 pm and still awake till now. ANd bored.

I dunno if I am also a pretty BORING person, but there's really, onli so much things you can be doing on your own. Even my mum have a more purposeful daily routine. Sigh. Another issue with having so much time on hand is that my mind tends to slant towards negativity thoughts, messes up my temperament and makes me moody. I definitely have a depressive disorder tendency hidden within and I dun wanna incline towards there by thinking out loud and questioning myself about Life. I juz survived one bad depression and there's no hurry to plunge back into another yet.

It's contradicting lah.

As much as I am enjoying moments of blogging, shitting, sleeping and practising the piano, I REALLY DUN NEED THE ENTIRE DAY!! God. Maybe you can appear in my bedroom to chat with me.