The world should end tom.

I used to think I am the only boy living.

I looked at clouds...imagining shapes and animals of all sorts. I looked at people and wondered what were they doing or thinking then. I watched shows on TV and couldn't understand why the characters protrayed, were evil or mean. I listen to music and they relaxed me. There were many questions and many self-replied answers. I wondered if anyone at all, thinks like me.

I was young.

Everyday, I wake up...still having many questions. But I stopped asking myself 'why?' anymore. Age have altered the innocence where I no longer wonder as much. The normality of days come and go, ripening my inquistiveness for happenings. I dun ask 'why they happen?' but 'why they happen to me?'. My tolerance got higher, so does the bitterness. I look at people and empathetise more with their situations. My envy for happiness grow in sync with jealousy and I start hating people in better-off positions. I seek my own to dwell with, blacklisting those who failed my set of values. My heart protests silently and furiously against those who lap up materialism and embrace realism. I habour hatred within and wish them all the worse. I want them dead. If possible, through my own hands. I want them to feel my pain like their own. Slowly.

Thankfully I dun quite make the cut as a serial murderer. And the current legal legistration can't convict me for crimes committed in thoughts. No I am not mad. Juz angry, very angry. Systems work for the upper tier and regulations protect those with significant interests, aren't they? In a world when everything is equal, where's the fear of losing? I have nothing to lose, the poor and averages have nothing to lose. But if you do, be afraid...be very afraid. Some crazy ass out there might wanna hack you, like how this guy did it. I am not endorsing his actions but I know it is very painful when there is lots to lose rite? ha.

There's one who posted on his msn shoutout 'to buy a Volkswagen Golf GTI or Honda Civic Type R?'. I say, buy either one in paper and burn it. Maybe buy both in paper so you have both cars to use when you rot in hell. I heard afew who juz receive diamond rings and are flaunting them right now. Remember to burn them too so you can still use them in hell. Oh..and there's those nincompoops who think the world about riches. Burn your money too! Before you are taken by mishaps/sickness suddenly.

KNNBCCB.

*Don't tell me what to do when you have resources which I dun have now. Even if you have been broke/down/pathetic before, you ARE alrite now. It's so easy to speak when you are on the other side. Juz get on with your own life, while I get on with mine. I didn't ask for your help so why your 2 cents' worth?

CY told me I should do something to help myself and make my life better. I wish! When I earn 10k a month, I will show you! When Life finally decide to accept me into her elite club, I will show you! When I get on the better end of situations, I will show you! Some things are just out of my control. Although you did work for it, it turned out fine. It could have been bad. To everyone (without discounting your efforts), when things are smoooooth and good, count your blessings. Seriously you are no more deserving than me. You could have been fucked big time too.

Too much candies and blings. Too much money and shit. Too many idiots. The world should end soon, before I decide to end it for you.