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Was so shacked out juz now and dropped dead 6 hrs ago only to wake up at 530am. Damnz. With 3 hrs away from work, to sleep or to surf? Been having this niggling pain/discomfort in my chest/abdomen. Esp when I am breathing...hav I kena stomach inflammation again? Shit.

Guess the beautiful short episode is juz tat. Short. Knowing myself, I can't see myself enagaging in anything more...not when there isn't much signs. (I am not exactly an assured person...) The last thing I want is to be called a bloody pest. (I have very hight EQ...) It's amazing how my mind can fucked myself up sometimes, when you over manifested your tots and one thing juz led to another. All inside the HEAD. Simply amazing. I am either imaginative or *phucked. In a span of a day, I think I shared the story with 5 persons. I juz wanna tell someone, anyone and everyone. Maybe it has been too long, maybe I never had an encounter like this before, or maybe D is different. She totally redefined and challenged my 'Rules of Engagement'

I sweared I msged her cos of our common passion. Still I dunno why I DARE to do it. And I wasn't exactly expecting a response. D is too forthcoming, too unpredictable. And it caught me unprepared. I muz hav seemed like a jerk for saying goodbye RIGHT after the session...when her posture doesn't seemed eager to go off yet.
(*Paiseh...I din really know what to say. Like what everyone told me, a gentleman WOULD at least offer to send u home, even if you were to decline. No brownie points there.)

Where is the famous implusive and courageous traits when I needed it? Am I missing anything by being passive?

Something is stirring. Hmm. Maybe I am juz hoping.