Happiness as it is

I am not weak.

I am not challenging anything. I dun plan for tomorrow. I dun know how to start. I have lots to say. I dun talk cos no one listens. I breathe with no regards to time, day or place. I keep it inside cos everyone has their own shits. I need someone but I trust no one. I choose to be alone cos no one realises I am lonely. I sing cos I need a voice. I drink to conceal my worries. I smoke to be at peace with myself. I dun cry cos it's already sad inside. I wanna go to somewhere new, with a new name, a new identity, a new life.

I dun wanna be Sam anymore. I wanna be happy.