Day after day.

Every month, I wait for payday. Every week, I wait for offdays. Everyday, I wonder what is going to happen the next day. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...I dunno when is the last time I actualy bother it's that particular day. Damn, I dun even bother what is IN a day.

I am living precariously by the seconds...maybe I haben find the reason to live.

The world spins everyday, people all over do their stuffs everyday and the people acquainted with me do their stuffs everyday. But I dunno how many of those are living Life the way they wanted to. I viewed some of their doings very inconsequential, very insignificant...some are bothered by very petty stuffs, some are detached from the real world, some are burdened by shitty happenings. Everyone have their stories, their reasons, their motives to live on, fight on or drag on. I live mine trying to understand why I am living. The way to survive, to justify my every actions, my existence.

I gained some, I lost some everyday. I gained kilos by losing time, drinking. I lost youth, gaining experiences. I lost myself by trying to understand what I am losing. One day I believe I will finally know, when someday I am taken. Someday can be any day, and sometimes I am shaken. But I also know any day will be juz 'one day', and everything will be taken. So day by day, day after day...we do what we do until it's the last day of our lives. Amazing how Life can promise so much, yet offer so little assurances. And we are all lead to believe that somehow, we are never the first in line to go and no bad can ever happen. So that we can seize the day! So that we can make our lives count! So that we can make good whatever we are doing!

Only to realise that Today might be our last.

So what is going to happen to things unfinished? What is going to happen to relationships left behind? To that dream job? To that newly-purchased LV bag? To that head-turning car? To everything that matters to you?

What is going to happen to you? Nothing. You juz disappear and the world moves on.

So why are we all still happy or sad doing/chasing/craving/dreaming/justifying/cursing/boasting blah blah blah about whatever we are going through now?


Just live, just breathe...
when Today is the same as the last,
Just live, just breathe...
for Today might juz be your last!

~ Sam G